Hanging out with my favorite boy

Today was a good day - I got up early (Brad snores) and had a nice cup of coffee. I did some sewing and some blogging and waited for Rachel to bring Brian over before she went to work. He was laughing at me as soon as I picked him up. What a sweet little boy - I sing this song, Rockin' Robin, made popular by the Jackson 5, he loves it!!!

I start humming the chorus and he turns to look at me and immediately smiles and his eyes get real wide and he just is smiling and laughing. He can be crying or fussy but I just start humming and he changes his disposition. He likes singing and music and although I don't sing all that well, it doesn't matter to him. Maybe that's why he laughs.
Brian is 4 1/2 months old and he's getting taller and bigger everyday. He's so inquisitive and is so ready to crawl, if he could just figure out how to rise up and stay. It's so cool watching him try to do it. He's amazing.
Well Rachel got off work at 1pm and we got ready to go to the pediatrician for Brian's check up and shots. His doctor is so nice, he looks like Santa and you can tell he just loves kids. So we stripped the baby, weighed him, measured him and the doctor examined him and said he looks great! Growing like a weed. Then the nurse came in and broke the mellow mood with the tray full of shots. He was not thrilled and Rockin' Robin was not doing it for him. But he eventually calmed down and nursed.
Got home after a couple of errands and Rachel and Brian went to their apartment. My heart feels like it's cracking a little bit everyday. I love them both so much and even though I know I will be leaving one way or the other, I am not so positive that I will make it without them.
Unfortunately, choices are hard regardless and it's just another example of why babies shouldn't have babies - because their mothers aren't ready!