HOLY BATSHIT!

We have a foot and half of snow out here and the pod comes MONDAY!!! Oh my GAWD!!!! It feels like January and looks like February around here. My house is a disaster with all the packing materials, odds and ends strewn from one end to the other, and trying to finish June's quilt. What were we thinking? The closer it gets to leaving the more I want to stay. I do not know how I am going to live without Brian - sure I can see myself living in Kentucky and the warm weather and the grass and flowers and all that - but it's going to be so sad without that little boy. I cannot begin to describe how much I love him.
But right now, I am consumed with this monstrosity - a house torn apart from the inside out and all the little pieces of my life colliding into the biggest mess I have ever seen. Again, I ask - why does one save all the little crap that one does? I have so many useless little items and half of them I do not know where they came from!
The other day, my hubby and I were packing out the basement and he brought 3 boxes to me. They were figurines of dolphins and whales that I had purchased in North Carolina before we moved here six years ago. Not only had I not unpacked them, I forgot I even had them. Now my first thought was, what a treat - I will have some new things to open when I get to KY. Then the reality of it all hit me - how sick am I that I should buy something, pack it, ship it, and not open it for over six years??!!! Really sick.
I have also had this image of my house in KY with the guest room filled top to bottom, wall to wall with boxes just waiting for the move back here in a year. Now this may seem crazy, but I submit - how crazy is it to unpack all this shit and repack it 13 months later???!!! Now you must be thinking, why are they moving if they're coming back? Well, that is a long and complicated answer to which I can really only say - even though I am not 100% sure - as long as my daughter and grandson are here - I am very sure we'll be coming back. As for the year part - that's how long hubby has until he must retire from the military.
I am just a rolling rock trying to keep up with it all. And all I can say is thank God for technology and cameras and camcorders and web cams and phones and mobile to mobile calling and anything else that will help me through this next 13 months. I have the move going, I have the itinerary planned, I even have decided that this next year will be about saving money, paying off bills and quilting this huge pile of fabric that took me forever to pack. But what I do not know is how I will live day to day without this little boy Brian who makes each moment in my life so joyful. I do know my heart will be broken, but I do not know how bad or how painful it will be. That's how I know we will be back here.